"The World is a amoral toilet bowl, and one day we'll all be flushed"
- Julie Cooper-Nickels-Cooper-Roberts, The O.C.

Table of Contents:  IGNORANCE   CRISIS IN A BLINK   SOCIETY

IGNORANCE IS BLISS

It's here folks, and it's knocking on your door, don't let it in. The Mind Collectors have taken over the government, remember way back when, when the "communists" were spying on their citizens, well, it's happening now in the good ol' US of A, and the mainstream TV dead heads are letting it happen.
The collective mainstream with their cell phones, Internets, TVs, SUVs, Get outta my way A-hole! ... have let it all happen and they don't even realize or care.
Television run by the government, Internet access screened by the government, cell phones GPS systems locked on your location, ATM and "traffic cams" monitor your image and location at any given moment in time. Homeland Security listening to your phone calls, your web searches, fingerprinting and iris scanning at air terminals; and we just let it happen for safety, they already have most of our information, and they want more?!

God is on our side, depending if you believe in the "right" God, by right, you know what I mean.
Ignorance is Bliss, has anyone read a book lately?! It's happening, it's obviously happening and we just condone it! It's a scary thought, oh wait, did someone just hear me THINK that?!
uh oh, maybe I shouldn't have thought that, or write this or think about what's going on in my life ... oh did I say "my life"? Is it my life? ask Terri Schiavo or has that been eeked away. Looking for the American Dream in fame and fortune, climbing the corporate ladder for that house on the cul de sac. Buying that silver SUV. Watching our children kill each other in school and on the streets, wait, the American Dream...a dream or nightmare?
Now I love America, don't get me wrong. We have a great system, if it worked. The dream of America is a good one, if we lived up to it, instead of bastardizing it for our own self-centered, greedy selves.

CRISIS IN A BLINK OF AN EYE
My grandmother probably said it best two months before she died, 'it's goes by so fast', meaning life, and she was 104; what does that say about the rest of us who have an average life span of 77.
Of course after hearing that and nearing 50, I started rethinking about my life and what happened, what was happening and what I wanted to happen. As opposed to have it happen to me.
You start to re-evaluate your life, since it's going by so quickly and the older you get, time perception goes by much more quickly. What use to be a year, seems like a month, a week, like a day, and a day, a few minutes. You start to think what you want and what you really need in your life.

Surfing, yeah, I know, surfing? at 50? Hey, it happens, most people start out in their teens learning to surf, heck, I didn't even learn how to float and do the breast stroke until I was 35, late bloomer. But I always loved surfing, more the lifestyle then the sport, but still, I always wanted to be a surfer. And just as fate would have it, a surf shop opened across the street from my apartment 8 months ago, and I swallowed my age and introduced myself to my latest friend Todd, owner and surfer dude, and we actually have fun together even though he's still in his early 30's.

Mid-life, you try to keep in shape, but the shape you're trying to keep, keeps going the wrong way. No matter how many hours you starve, how many minutes you exercise, your body isn't the one you remember. You dream about maybe and pretend it isn't so, but in reality, the gray hair is there, no matter how much bleach you put on it, and your hands are withering away with the rest of you. But still, you look in the mirror and project back to the day..but those days are gone, really, let's be truthful, I can't walk 5 miles an hour anymore, I barely make it 3 miles an hour now.

And now back to surfing, first thing you learn is keeping a board steady on the water and paddling long distances, well the first time I did, we spent maybe 45 minutes in the water, it took me a month and a half to get over all the aches and pains, and major aches and pains..but I still want to do it again, and the sooner the better and this time hopefully catching my first wave. Maybe that's all I want, is that first wave, but maybe it will be more than that. I still take my skateboard out occasionally, but the real reason I don't skate that much is the spill I had 15 years ago which sorta spooked me from skating, not my age, just the pain. And maybe that's what aging does, makes you more experienced in what you can do and what you don't want to do, as opposed to not able to do.

So, that's the aspects of growing older, at least for me, well, not all the aspects, there is the aches and pains of everyday and the fear of just dying anytime, anywhere...but that can happen to anyone, some teens die before they're 20, and I've had lots of friends who never made it to high school or college or through college. Now my friends are dying to heart attacks and cancer, not murder, suicide and accidents. But when it's all said and done, and do you have regrets, I will say, yes I do, I regret I didn't do half the things I wanted, some out of fear and lack of money, but mainly, now because there isn't time enough to do everything. It takes time to learn how to surf, create a website, learn Flash Actionscripting and other computer programs, and still watch TV, work, enjoy your life's partner and socialize with your beer drinking surf buds; and like my granny said, it goes by so fast, and she was over a 100! I'm trying to cram 100 years into 75, no wonder I'm in crisis.

SOCIAL ADJUSTMENT

I couldn't let it go, I wanted too, but society has such an impact on me that I couldn't just let it go.
We're here for who knows what reason and maybe we're just put here or we just are, I don't know, do you? I'm sure you will say you do, if you're like others in society who know what's best for everyone, and I applaud you on your social skills. But, like me, you are you and we are all together, well, altogether is more together than all together, never mind, bad joke.

Which brings me back to society...(do I have to spell that one out for you..) anyway, society as a whole, everyone, all makes, creeds, colors, religions, whatevers, we're all part of the world, and each has their identity, which means, each has an opinion, a vital say in what goes on, not just one person, group or thing, unless it's Godzilla, and I think that thing has the right to say or do anything, who would stop him, Mothra?, Ultra Man, well, yeah that's a given, anyway.

I'm going off the subject, I hope so, cause, it's really a boring subject, it's boring me, and I'm the one who started this rant, which it is...cause I haven't a clue as to where I fit in to society, so how can I really comment on it. It's just that, that goes for the rest of you who think you know what's good for me, cause, you and I, we're the same, and that means equal and that means what I think for myself is for myself, and as long as I don't spill your beer, don't spill mine.

PARKING PEEVES
I'm sorry but it astonishes me how unaware people are in my neighborhood, when it comes to parking, they have no clue anyone else needs a space.
We have a parking space in front of our apartment building which has room for 4 vehicles on a good day, and I'm fine with that, on a really good day, you can get 5 cars parked there.

But today, a moped took up 2 spaces, .... I'm sorry, a MOPED!, you can put it by the door of the building you're at!, or at least park it so someone might have a place.

This is just one of the stupid parking things that happen, but it's really mostly one car takes up 2 spaces, they have no clue, parking is not that easy around here, plus they're building more and more multicondo's in the hood, it's gonna get even worst...I just can't wait to leave Seattle!